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On Carrying Impossible Things

Dreams”; such a fickle word, isn’t it? Some are meant to be fulfilled and many are submerged in the abyss of nothingness. We are the creatures who get to be the carriers of such flamboyant beings.


Being one of such carriers, I wonder, “Am I doing justice to myself or my dreams?” “Am I supposed to be living like this and let my dreams be dying their own job?” I am a responsible adult in my country, I pay my bills and have my food and dream like everyone around me. However, occasionally a seed of doubt gets sown in the back of my head and it continues to grow with the help of darkness that resides in me.


I work as a feminist educator, facilitator, or whatever this hot so-called feminist society calls it. I’ve been pushed around just so that I can be downplayed by the so-called “powerful dynamic” of this godforsaken society.
I’m a dreamer who wants to fuel others’ dreams to their fulfillment. I’m a woman who wants to dream of a tarnish-free society where every child in the streets would get a roof on his/her head, food in his/her stomach.
But everything comes to a halt at one question: “How?”


How can I reach there?
How can I make my dreams true without breaking others’ dreams?
Neither do I have a huge bank balance nor any building on my father’s name. A dreamer can only understand how time continues to pass but the reality remains constant; his dream.
Now comes the peak moment where the dreamer has to take the initiative to turn it into reality. As the carriers of such beautiful beings, we need to believe in ourselves and let our patience, time, and resources play their roles on this stage of the dramatic world.

And Lo and Behold! We’ve come to another end. Always thankful to you for sticking around and letting your time be consumed by these ramblings. Au revoir!

Time

‘Time and tide wait for no one.’ Hello dear readers and ramblers! Been a while, ain’t it? Feels like an eternity of tapping into the magic of words. Well…. things change. And finally, they change so rapidly that you wouldn’t get even a second to wrap your head around it. One minute, you are managing something and the other your other side of the world crumbles.

Well, look at me; talking like someone who has gone through eternity and still has a story to share. That’s time for you. It teaches you its lesson. Some are for you only and some become tattletale for others. However, the plain outcome is, time makes you wiser. Either by hook or crook. Right at the moment, I’m putting these thoughts down; the other end of my brain is already getting occupied to fill the other pages.

I think time makes you stronger and withered at the same time too. Have you ever wondered that, how a hard edged stone loses its edges and starts to become softer, if it is under the water for a long time. It becomes softer just to adapt itself as its situation demands. The strange irony with us is, we are the softer version of our lifetime in the beginning, but time makes us hardened as it passes away, doesn’t it?

I wonder if it is time to sign off and ponder on something else? So, taking a leave for the time being with a hopeful note of gratitude of sticking around. Try not to be a stranger and let your ramblings find a way back home in the comments.

Au revoir.

Restless: Reeling mind

Been a while since I tried writing.. 11:43 by my watch. It might take longer to post, because I’ve so much to put on this clean slate. But on the other hand, I’m coming all blank. As it is already, my chaotic mind decided to remind me that it is still a living and breathing entity on its own.

I chose this topic to share my opinions because, we all reach there at one or another point in our life; time and time again. Its about to be 26th January and being a Nepali makes you lucky and accepting to everything, doesn’t it? Soon, it will be time to say Goodbye to the year 2080 and welcome 2081.

Each day is slipping through our fingers like sand. Some days we want to hold on to that sand as tight as possible without knowing that we’re actually letting it slip more speedily. Humans are fickle, aren’t they? Its our nature after all. We know everything but acceptance is not welcomed in our life.

And to refute, just so that we can have satisfaction of some moments only to come to the almighty, so that he can guide us better. So, here I am. At the beginning of a new day, with a mind with reeling thoughts. Its exactly as attempting exams. Where we have to choose the most appropriate answer . Where the options are related to each other and nothing seems wrong. However, only one is supposed to be correct.

If only I could be a student one more time.. oh the wistfulness. Alas! I don’t have the ultimate solution of this , i.e., time machine. But, look at the bright side, these precious moments let me welcome a New day with new hopes and rambling about my confusions has soothed my restlessness to some extent.

So, its time to end my ramblings here so that I can bring something better forward pretty soon..

Silence: Craved Peace or Unraveled Conversation With Oneself?

Hello there dear readers and visitors.. Hope its going well with you. Its been a while since I’ve updated something like this here on this site. And believe me, I’m feeling like I am waking up from a long deep sleep. But, I felt like this is something I should definitely ramble about. So, here I am.

‘Silence’.. who doesn’t crave for it in the world full of chaos and cacophony? I do and in hopes of releasing some of those inner noises I came here to ramble. Right now, when I’m sitting near my window letting the nature play its tricks on me and as these few moments of silence are with me, I realised that this is what I was basically craving for. Silence so that my thoughts can speak and come out.

As the title of this blog suggests that how someone takes the silence surrounding them it will become exactly that. So, I think its us from the beginning till the end. Right? Life is such a fickle thing that it keeps making us reach at the crossroads unless we decide for ourselves what to choose. Isn’t it humorous that the answers are within us and we look for them outside. I think its too noisy up here that’s why the out noises are less bothering for us.

So, why not just take a deep breath and close our eyes and let those silent moment decide themselves that what they want to be for us: A source of peace or an inner monologue? Why not trust that little voice which can bring you the eventual peace if you work along with it instead of against it. Just have faith and talk to yourself. The answers are just there. If not at the surface, then they’re deep within you. We all have those two keys, i.e. silence and patience. So, let’s keep trying which key fits in our situation to unlock a better way! Not a bad idea.. I hope so?

Oh! Look at the time it flew just like that. So, with no promises of return but hopes to keep rambling it’s time to take a pause. Au revoir!!

Rain

Hello there dear readers.. How’re you all? Hope you’re doing fine. Its Saturday, so I do hope that its going good for you. Well, let’s get back to the point of the beginning, where I was thinking to not write. More like my lazy self was saying that. But my other half caved in and succumbed in the throes of the bliss known as ‘writing.’ The reason I chose this topic because of its uncomplexity; its raining outside. 18:44 to be exact when I’m penning my thoughts here on the site. I started atleast half an hour ago but, the site kept crashing. I guess the site is enjoying a lazy saturday as well.

My rainy day playlist is on with background music of pitter-patter of rain and its quite relaxing. Except when the clouds create chaos in the sky. However, my mind is living in its own universe. Where the world seems peaceful, less noisy almost serene and fresh. My thoughts need an escape as well. The way its raining outside, the water is pouring down from the sky and making the weather clean. My thoughts are eager to come out so that the previous thoughts can vacate the space for the new ones. Interesting, isn’t it?

Whatever we do, makes us a part of some cycle. Finish-repeat, finish-repeat and so on. Some cycles get broken only to get involved in the newer one. But, that’s life. Pouring of rain and thoughts is just important for cleansing of our inner and outer universe, isn’t it? These ramblings are nothing more than my monologue. I’m just letting them come out in form of words. To wonder more, when our thoughts get the shape of words or later full sensible sentences; they become beautiful for us. Leaving a feeling of a weight being lifted off from the chest. The feeling of being freed from a contraption.

Just like ‘rain’.. the clouds must feel lighter after dumping the water on the earth; only to be part of the cycle of universe. I guess, its time for wrap this verbose here. Time to break the cycle, so that I can enter into new one. So, let’s depart on the genuine note of greatfulness to my readers and viewers who are giving their precious time to read these ramblings. Besides that, an assurance of ‘it’s ok’. It’s ok to let your thoughts pour out once in a while to collect so much more than ‘today’.

Au Revoir! Have a nice week ahead..

Changes

Hello there! Dear fellow humans and readers. How are you all? I hope you guys are doing fine. First of all, I want to complete a task by wishing you all HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY. Today, let’s make sure that this precious person can feel amazing or top of the world, shall we? Ever wondered, what is that which is the most bitter and truthful thing? What’s that which if anyone tries to accept wholeheartedly can live peacefully but if not, then it will try to make one accept its importance and fixture in their life, quite loudly and obnoxiously? Yup, if you were able to reach there by connecting the dots with today’s topic.. Then, its the ‘truth of change.’

They say, nothing is trurer and more constant than change. weird, isn’it? I mean, a human is considered as the most possessive creation of the God. They can die to protect the one thing which is loved by them most deeply and intensely or it can turn the other way around. However, the god is still the Boss here. Right, its like he wants to say, “Do whatever you want, but when the wave of change will come then its going to be mightier than your skill of possession.” Every day someone is going or coming into the world to keep the balance with the tagline of ‘the show must go on.’

A whole platform is prepared for us to play our roles and exit when the curtain falls. Therefore, is anything which can’t ever be avoided is: Change. But, look at the irony, this change unintentionally brings out the worst fear of losing one’s possession. Its like the god wants to have his own entertainment by watching his own show. Where everyone knows everything but, they won’t act on it. The hold on the sand is unfruitful, isn’t it? The tighter the grip is, the quicker it slips away. And everyone knows about it. One day, we’re goofing around with our group of ‘BFFs’ and the other day, we’re rummaging through our closets to select the best formal outfit to set our first impression.

Time is flying with its humongous wings and nothing can be done about it, except being the part of the change instead of fighting tooth and nail against it. They say, no matter how good of a swimmer you are; you’ll get exhausted if you keep swimming in the opposite direction of the waves. Because, you’ll have to put whole lot of more effort to fulfill that task to some extent. Then, at last when your reserves will get exhausted the mighty waves will catch up to you.

So, I guess its ok to relax for awhile and have a bucket of popcorn in your hands to enjoy the ride to reach our destination. Sacrifices, wounds, healing and many other factors are part of this race. Which will only help us to learn and move ahead. Later on, it’d become some kind of batch for us as a proof of surviving one more day of this beautiful and eventful journey.

Oh! Will you look that the time, it actually flies to make itself the part of the constant truth. Its time to depart from this topic and rest my words here on a cheerful and thankful note by saying a huge THANK YOU which is directly and honest to the God coming from the bottom of my heart. I can’t appreciate enough all those readers, who have given their precious time to drop into this site and spare their moments to my ramblings. So, see you soon! After some pause. Signing off from here, to take a new journey of exploration so that I can give a shape to my ramblings.

Antagonist: Hateful or pitiful?

Hello there dear readers!! Hope you’re doin’ fine .. Coz, I’m doing fine here. Its like after a break some floodgates have been opened and things are just clicking on the place. ah! The ups and downs are still here. But, I think myself as a multitasker. So, I’m gonna roll with it. So, let’s jump to the topic and apology in advance for getting outta topic as I tend to do that alot.

So, as today’s topic is as clear as a sunny day. I’m gonna speak about antagonists of any story. As a disney and marvel universe fan I like to watch the movies and series alot. However, just out of their regular context of making the protagonists overpowered or too demsel in distress. The writers make the antagonists write and portray them too shady. Don’t you think so?

Let’s take an example of story ‘Snowhite’. Oh! The sweet girl who is too beautiful for her own good. A mother who sadly is taken away from her. A father who wants to fill the void of a maternal love in his lovely daughter’s life. Hence, remarries and settles down. Now, we know a concept of marriage is brought with lots of reassurances and promises. Otherwise, he could’ve hired a full time nanny for his dear daughter. And, finally enters the stepmother, a woman who was reassured with the protection of a man. But, Alas.. he dies as well.. Oh, universe!! Why’d you do that?

Now, we all might have heard ‘blood is thicker than water’ at some point of our life, haven’t we? Ain’t it true as well? All the knowledge of justice and scriptures is on one hand and being a tadbit biased with your own blood is only natural. So, how wouldn’t anyone feel insecure from their better. The books and movies they always portray the protagonists; no matter they are male or female, either too overpowered or too fragile. And it is just the tip of the iceberg. Most of the time they are too sweet and gentle in nature that it’d most assuredly give the readers or viewers some cavity.

While, on the other hand, the antagonists are made too dark that the parents would warn their children to not become like them in future. Hmm! Maybe, that’s why our perspective is like that? We have been taught from the very young age to look through everything in ‘black’ and ‘white’ shades. And, that’s why when one grows up and when they need to deal with too many colours and natures, they get the whiplashes of life.

Something new to wonder about? Whatchu’ think? Having mercy on antagonist because insecurity could embrace anyone, couldn’t it? Because, you know these positive and negative emotions are not taught to look into the world by wearing ‘black’ and ‘white’ shades.

So, that’s it for now, thank you so much for dropping in and giving your precious time to my ‘ramblings’. If they’re liked and understood by you, please make sure to share them. Because, I really think that if I can conect with some of the people on any level then I can definitely connect with few more. Au revoir!! A bientot!!

Conflicts

Hey there! My dear readers and viewers.. How are you all? I hope you all are doing fine. It’s been awhile since I had written something; so, yeah my hands are shaking.. But they say one should always do something which is therapeutic for them. Its like a therepy with not so normal steps. Well, you know this piece of writing is not going to be more than a method of ‘me answering to myself.’ Being a part of a circle called ‘life’ is not easy afterall.

Facades to maintain, smiles to bear so people don’t as you out of the loop question of you being fine and so on. It’s never ending but that’s what makes life not so monotonous, isn’t it? However, things become conflicting when too many doors are opened. There’s always a time when one blames the almighty that he has constricted them to move ahead with less options. But, on the very other hand when there are options we don’t wanna take risks and leave our ‘comfort zone.’

So, why do we feel like that? Is it something related to the universe or is it one more thing for us to blame on the ‘poor’ universe. A thing to wonder but nobody thinks its important enough to give their ‘precious’ time up on. And at last a small ‘Thank You’ to Mahadev for letting me have this time to pour my few snippets of thoughts.

Ah! How quickly time flies.. I just started to write. But, this is it for now… Au revoir.. A bientot!!

Pain

They say when your mind is too addled with extreme of your emotions then it keeps boggling you.It doesn’t let you sleep, it doesn’t let you stay awake. Just a state of a limbo where it gets only difficult to choose;’where should I go?’ So, here I am once again! Timing is a bit unusual but I don’t know what to do? I tried sleeping but I just am not able to sleep.

It’s around 1:30 and the new day has started. But my hormonal self is not at peace. Its raining outside. We call it ‘Bin mausam Baarish’. Everyone is asleep and I am just turning to get comfortable around. I have read somewhere that ‘if our mind is not at peace, then no matter how hard we try we won’t be able to centralize ourselves.’ And, right now it’s not listening to me.

This rain is like a cherry on top. Or, in other words ‘sone pe suhaga’. It’s like the universe itself doesn’t want me to sleep or take rest! Strange no, when we look for peace; it is handed over to us and still it just doesn’t feel worthy. Alas! Sometimes it’s actually painful to be a human. We have a mouth to express ourselves but when on the very same hand we are taught to turn a blind eye.

You know the feeling when you know that you shouldn’t cope up with such things, but ‘beggars can’t be the choosers’ situations arrive and you have to turn a blind eye. And later it eats you up? Emotions are so flickering.. If they are levelled up, then everything is ok. But if they turn a pinch extreme then they clam up on you.

Sometimes, all we need is a little nudge to see a little light. A nudge to see the sky from the pain we are going through. I guess now I can take a break. The rain has stopped as well. Quite impromptu drop of ramblings. But they say one shouldn’t stop the flow of thoughts. Because, they’re meant to be unstoppable.

This is it for now. Au revoir..À bientôt!

Clouds

Hello there readers and ramblers. If you are still there. I know it’s been a while since I have not written. But they say ‘if you have lots of things to ponder upon then settling those thoughts will take it’s sweet time.’ So, yeah I am trying to be back on track and some pause or breather is always necessary. A wise person once said that ‘it is ok to take rest and take a back seat and just look around’.

So, I was returning back home and just thinking or shall I say summarizing or reviewing my day and hence a mental pros and cons of the day was there as well and then; like someone  was calling me to knock some sense into me. I looked up to the sky and; those cottony clouds were practically demanding my attention.
I know things usually do that and all but, me being my ever imaginative  self thrive on imagination.

Again, those clouds made me think that how things are just perfect with their imperfections. They come in different shapes, sizes,colors and textures. Grey and thick clouds forewarn us about heavy showering and thunderstorms. Cottony and white  clouds indicate a clear and honest weather. Just like humans. Everyone in this world carries a mark of the battle they are fighting everyday.

Waking up and leaving that evil bed in the hope of a promising day is the first of many battles which is fought by us. No matter who and what role is ahead us to play. Then come the battles of satisfaction and coordination. I accept we come in this world alone and no one is going to be with us when it’s our time to depart. But to live and breathe we need people, don’t we? And to survive a day ‘art of appeasement’ comes forth to play its role.

Each and everyone is different from others. Like a palate of different colors or a beautiful sky full of mismatched clouds! We are our own teachers because no one else can give us the valuable lessons unless we invest ourselves into it wholeheartedly. I can be wrong as well.

So what do you think about this round of ramblings? Your reviews and remarks are always appreciated. And thank you for sparing your precious few minutes here on these ramblings. Au revoir! À bientôt!