On Carrying Impossible Things

Dreams”; such a fickle word, isn’t it? Some are meant to be fulfilled and many are submerged in the abyss of nothingness. We are the creatures who get to be the carriers of such flamboyant beings.


Being one of such carriers, I wonder, “Am I doing justice to myself or my dreams?” “Am I supposed to be living like this and let my dreams be dying their own job?” I am a responsible adult in my country, I pay my bills and have my food and dream like everyone around me. However, occasionally a seed of doubt gets sown in the back of my head and it continues to grow with the help of darkness that resides in me.


I work as a feminist educator, facilitator, or whatever this hot so-called feminist society calls it. I’ve been pushed around just so that I can be downplayed by the so-called “powerful dynamic” of this godforsaken society.
I’m a dreamer who wants to fuel others’ dreams to their fulfillment. I’m a woman who wants to dream of a tarnish-free society where every child in the streets would get a roof on his/her head, food in his/her stomach.
But everything comes to a halt at one question: “How?”


How can I reach there?
How can I make my dreams true without breaking others’ dreams?
Neither do I have a huge bank balance nor any building on my father’s name. A dreamer can only understand how time continues to pass but the reality remains constant; his dream.
Now comes the peak moment where the dreamer has to take the initiative to turn it into reality. As the carriers of such beautiful beings, we need to believe in ourselves and let our patience, time, and resources play their roles on this stage of the dramatic world.

And Lo and Behold! We’ve come to another end. Always thankful to you for sticking around and letting your time be consumed by these ramblings. Au revoir!

Restless: Reeling mind

Been a while since I tried writing.. 11:43 by my watch. It might take longer to post, because I’ve so much to put on this clean slate. But on the other hand, I’m coming all blank. As it is already, my chaotic mind decided to remind me that it is still a living and breathing entity on its own.

I chose this topic to share my opinions because, we all reach there at one or another point in our life; time and time again. Its about to be 26th January and being a Nepali makes you lucky and accepting to everything, doesn’t it? Soon, it will be time to say Goodbye to the year 2080 and welcome 2081.

Each day is slipping through our fingers like sand. Some days we want to hold on to that sand as tight as possible without knowing that we’re actually letting it slip more speedily. Humans are fickle, aren’t they? Its our nature after all. We know everything but acceptance is not welcomed in our life.

And to refute, just so that we can have satisfaction of some moments only to come to the almighty, so that he can guide us better. So, here I am. At the beginning of a new day, with a mind with reeling thoughts. Its exactly as attempting exams. Where we have to choose the most appropriate answer . Where the options are related to each other and nothing seems wrong. However, only one is supposed to be correct.

If only I could be a student one more time.. oh the wistfulness. Alas! I don’t have the ultimate solution of this , i.e., time machine. But, look at the bright side, these precious moments let me welcome a New day with new hopes and rambling about my confusions has soothed my restlessness to some extent.

So, its time to end my ramblings here so that I can bring something better forward pretty soon..

Conflicts

Hey there! My dear readers and viewers.. How are you all? I hope you all are doing fine. It’s been awhile since I had written something; so, yeah my hands are shaking.. But they say one should always do something which is therapeutic for them. Its like a therepy with not so normal steps. Well, you know this piece of writing is not going to be more than a method of ‘me answering to myself.’ Being a part of a circle called ‘life’ is not easy afterall.

Facades to maintain, smiles to bear so people don’t as you out of the loop question of you being fine and so on. It’s never ending but that’s what makes life not so monotonous, isn’t it? However, things become conflicting when too many doors are opened. There’s always a time when one blames the almighty that he has constricted them to move ahead with less options. But, on the very other hand when there are options we don’t wanna take risks and leave our ‘comfort zone.’

So, why do we feel like that? Is it something related to the universe or is it one more thing for us to blame on the ‘poor’ universe. A thing to wonder but nobody thinks its important enough to give their ‘precious’ time up on. And at last a small ‘Thank You’ to Mahadev for letting me have this time to pour my few snippets of thoughts.

Ah! How quickly time flies.. I just started to write. But, this is it for now… Au revoir.. A bientot!!

Life

Life? A small four letter word but holds so much for everyone, doesn’t it? And why wouldn’t it be ? It defines us. Every breath taken by us is something which we owe to someone, who is very dear to us.And it’s truth no matter how melodramatic I sound. if it’s not agreeable then wouldn’t living every single day become a taxing chore to do?

The theory ‘survival of the fittest’ is something which I follow genuinely. Everyone has issues and they have different ways to deal with them.Being violent and accepting the torcher without raising voice are one of them.Just because someone is not raising their voices or showing emotions; doesn’t mean they are weak.Just like raising your voice or showing off the brute strength doesn’t make you stronger.It can be exact opposite as well. Dontchu’ think?

Well it’s time to wrap up. Thought it’s time to get acquainted with my love which is writing.As well introduce myself with few readers. So this is Vineeta signing off for now.

Will wait eagerly for your response. Reviews are very much appreciated.