Pain

They say when your mind is too addled with extreme of your emotions then it keeps boggling you.It doesn’t let you sleep, it doesn’t let you stay awake. Just a state of a limbo where it gets only difficult to choose;’where should I go?’ So, here I am once again! Timing is a bit unusual but I don’t know what to do? I tried sleeping but I just am not able to sleep.

It’s around 1:30 and the new day has started. But my hormonal self is not at peace. Its raining outside. We call it ‘Bin mausam Baarish’. Everyone is asleep and I am just turning to get comfortable around. I have read somewhere that ‘if our mind is not at peace, then no matter how hard we try we won’t be able to centralize ourselves.’ And, right now it’s not listening to me.

This rain is like a cherry on top. Or, in other words ‘sone pe suhaga’. It’s like the universe itself doesn’t want me to sleep or take rest! Strange no, when we look for peace; it is handed over to us and still it just doesn’t feel worthy. Alas! Sometimes it’s actually painful to be a human. We have a mouth to express ourselves but when on the very same hand we are taught to turn a blind eye.

You know the feeling when you know that you shouldn’t cope up with such things, but ‘beggars can’t be the choosers’ situations arrive and you have to turn a blind eye. And later it eats you up? Emotions are so flickering.. If they are levelled up, then everything is ok. But if they turn a pinch extreme then they clam up on you.

Sometimes, all we need is a little nudge to see a little light. A nudge to see the sky from the pain we are going through. I guess now I can take a break. The rain has stopped as well. Quite impromptu drop of ramblings. But they say one shouldn’t stop the flow of thoughts. Because, they’re meant to be unstoppable.

This is it for now. Au revoir..À bientôt!